Well, under normal circumstances, this would be good news, right? However, it is because I have three severely degraded discs in my back that I will not be able to have surgery on Tuesday. They tell me that a three-level fusion would only eventually cause me more pain. I am stunned. I am devastated. I cannot live the rest of my life in this agony. I guess I will hang on as I seek a second, third, fourth, opinion. In the meantime, I suffer. Time — such a precious thing. I don’t know how much longer I can endure this pain. All my surgeon could offer was to send me to a pain management doctor. I cannot deal with this right now. I think I will take my sleeping pill and just try to numb myself for a while.